1st day of the damn holiday...

okay... fine... finally i am posting... this is one of the saddest days of my life... my lip hole closed.... sobs... my hole that i put in alot of effort to keep... but ohwells... okay... been cutting down on smoking.. like say from half a pack to less than 10 sticks? yeps... and my cough is getting worse... instead of the green stuff.. its more like brown.... i think i am getting lung cancer... die the earlier is suppose is better.... i hate some ppl these days.... i cant stand them but unfortunately have deep respect for them so i cant do anything bout it.... so yeah