CUTS

stand for Chemistry Under The Sanctuary haha but no.. Caroling Under The stars lah u dopes... okay... i met antho n the rest there... n louis n cheryl n charmaine, n well... alot of ppl i know... so... the songs there are not that bad... zac lou's band rocks... okay... in between the bands i went to have a smoke with louis from chior n his friend cheryl, charmaine's sister... hahaahaha
she is actually a good smoker.. every 10 minutes go smoke lol!!
Today wasn't that bad... went for legion as usual... combined meeting with AC... then after that lunhc n dota game... i seriously didn't play that well today... well because the comps sucks... and i made a huge mistake of taking Venomancer.... as i said i got killed 9 times but only managed to kill 3... i am just a support hero... zzz then went for coffee with antho leslie n aaron... tried the new marlboro ice mint... whoa fucking cold n shiok!! i loved every single puff i take... LOL.. i still have half a packet of viceroy n i bought a new pack... but its okay at least i can still smoke quite alot wakakakakakakaka... chimney baby!! nonetheless... i must say... this... at the end of the day... no matter how much u punish me... i still love my Godfather... and Godmummie hahaha xDDDD okay get shitty eyes outta here... and P.S. i hope gabriel's bday 2moro is awesome!! =D

Christmas

i went out with antho n company on christmas eve for dinner at bliss.. wow i spent 15 bucks on 6 oysters.. i mean its nice... delicious.. but shld have given at 6 more.. yeah.. i spent 30 bucks there.. and it was worth it... antho and joan gave me 2 pairs of socks.. one of which was pink.. so they told me to wear the pink socks first... okay lor.. christmas what... so i wear... quite comfortable actually.. haven't tried the black yet.. the black one i will wear it to legion on sunday.. but the pink i will wear it on CUTS.. (carol under the stars) or something like that.. yeah... so... DnD wasn't what i expected... i paid 6 bucks to n sit there for a bout an hour or so... and great.. my luck wasn't that bad... i won a dvd cover from the lucky draw... now i can put all my xbox games in them.. wakaka hehe hurhur.. okay... then something which is funny is... how come jessica's classmates are starting to add me these days.. am i that charming -.^ hur-hur... funny thing actually... i got a total of....4 presents and 2 cards... lester:candy cane, aaron:card daphne:a photo album of her wedding antho n joan: 2 pairs of socks.. really thanks guys... sorry if i didn't get u anything.. mini toons closed... so yeap... okay thats about it..

merry christmas hobos

I dont feel good about myself

why when She rejected me... how come i feel like jumping off a building? i don't really have the will to live anymore... i don't quite get it... i felt like crying fucking heart out... why did God give me emotions? why did He give me love? i don't want to love anymore... i am scared i will get hurt again... i want to be serious... but what is it bad about me? i have never wanted it this way? i want to be with her till the end of my life.. even if winning her heart sends me to heaven or hell.. i will still try... even if i have to die horribly.. i will still do it... .. i hate myself... i hate everything in this world.. i want my life to end... i want it all to end... i sinking deeper into depression... a fight with manuel... stuck to bubblegum on my shorts, having cockroach running on my leg... she rejecting me... is this the time of my life where i will be unlucky?. God answer me!! answer me you fucking jackass sitting up there.. i want you to end my fucking life.. i have no more will to live... i have no more other reason to live... i want to die... i would love to... this is some fucking life ain't it? you made everyone special my fucking ass... what kind of fucking talents do i fucking have? i am special in what fucking way? or am i some failed human? i don't want this feelings anymore.. God take my fucking emotions away... i don't want to be in love anymore... i don't want to love anymore... i hate love.... fuck it!

Some fucking loser who wants to die..
Marcus tan just died today...

yesterday

was a good day. if not for my brother who pissed me off.. then... made me and my father n mother quarrel.. on the night before his fucking birthday damn it.. i dont think i am interested in my life anymore... when my angel came and cheered me up... yeah...
i am so serious about her now... bye homo sapians

Legion Chalet....

Rocks!!! of course it rocks.. all we ever did was sit inside and played xbox... and ps2.. thanks to the damn rain... no beach games sian...
sry for not updating people... very lazy...
Christmas events and to-do list :
:buy cards/prezzies for friends.
:go for ycs caroling
:be a good boy and wait for my psp from my mother lol

New year resolutions:
1:work hard for "N" levels
2:Promise for legion of mary
3:Cut down on my smoking habits
4:Attend mass regularly
5:get this special girl from my cat class to a date
Bye for now homo sapiens