CUTS

stand for Chemistry Under The Sanctuary haha but no.. Caroling Under The stars lah u dopes... okay... i met antho n the rest there... n louis n cheryl n charmaine, n well... alot of ppl i know... so... the songs there are not that bad... zac lou's band rocks... okay... in between the bands i went to have a smoke with louis from chior n his friend cheryl, charmaine's sister... hahaahaha
she is actually a good smoker.. every 10 minutes go smoke lol!!
Today wasn't that bad... went for legion as usual... combined meeting with AC... then after that lunhc n dota game... i seriously didn't play that well today... well because the comps sucks... and i made a huge mistake of taking Venomancer.... as i said i got killed 9 times but only managed to kill 3... i am just a support hero... zzz then went for coffee with antho leslie n aaron... tried the new marlboro ice mint... whoa fucking cold n shiok!! i loved every single puff i take... LOL.. i still have half a packet of viceroy n i bought a new pack... but its okay at least i can still smoke quite alot wakakakakakakaka... chimney baby!! nonetheless... i must say... this... at the end of the day... no matter how much u punish me... i still love my Godfather... and Godmummie hahaha xDDDD okay get shitty eyes outta here... and P.S. i hope gabriel's bday 2moro is awesome!! =D

Christmas

i went out with antho n company on christmas eve for dinner at bliss.. wow i spent 15 bucks on 6 oysters.. i mean its nice... delicious.. but shld have given at 6 more.. yeah.. i spent 30 bucks there.. and it was worth it... antho and joan gave me 2 pairs of socks.. one of which was pink.. so they told me to wear the pink socks first... okay lor.. christmas what... so i wear... quite comfortable actually.. haven't tried the black yet.. the black one i will wear it to legion on sunday.. but the pink i will wear it on CUTS.. (carol under the stars) or something like that.. yeah... so... DnD wasn't what i expected... i paid 6 bucks to n sit there for a bout an hour or so... and great.. my luck wasn't that bad... i won a dvd cover from the lucky draw... now i can put all my xbox games in them.. wakaka hehe hurhur.. okay... then something which is funny is... how come jessica's classmates are starting to add me these days.. am i that charming -.^ hur-hur... funny thing actually... i got a total of....4 presents and 2 cards... lester:candy cane, aaron:card daphne:a photo album of her wedding antho n joan: 2 pairs of socks.. really thanks guys... sorry if i didn't get u anything.. mini toons closed... so yeap... okay thats about it..

merry christmas hobos

I dont feel good about myself

why when She rejected me... how come i feel like jumping off a building? i don't really have the will to live anymore... i don't quite get it... i felt like crying fucking heart out... why did God give me emotions? why did He give me love? i don't want to love anymore... i am scared i will get hurt again... i want to be serious... but what is it bad about me? i have never wanted it this way? i want to be with her till the end of my life.. even if winning her heart sends me to heaven or hell.. i will still try... even if i have to die horribly.. i will still do it... .. i hate myself... i hate everything in this world.. i want my life to end... i want it all to end... i sinking deeper into depression... a fight with manuel... stuck to bubblegum on my shorts, having cockroach running on my leg... she rejecting me... is this the time of my life where i will be unlucky?. God answer me!! answer me you fucking jackass sitting up there.. i want you to end my fucking life.. i have no more will to live... i have no more other reason to live... i want to die... i would love to... this is some fucking life ain't it? you made everyone special my fucking ass... what kind of fucking talents do i fucking have? i am special in what fucking way? or am i some failed human? i don't want this feelings anymore.. God take my fucking emotions away... i don't want to be in love anymore... i don't want to love anymore... i hate love.... fuck it!

Some fucking loser who wants to die..
Marcus tan just died today...

yesterday

was a good day. if not for my brother who pissed me off.. then... made me and my father n mother quarrel.. on the night before his fucking birthday damn it.. i dont think i am interested in my life anymore... when my angel came and cheered me up... yeah...
i am so serious about her now... bye homo sapians

Legion Chalet....

Rocks!!! of course it rocks.. all we ever did was sit inside and played xbox... and ps2.. thanks to the damn rain... no beach games sian...
sry for not updating people... very lazy...
Christmas events and to-do list :
:buy cards/prezzies for friends.
:go for ycs caroling
:be a good boy and wait for my psp from my mother lol

New year resolutions:
1:work hard for "N" levels
2:Promise for legion of mary
3:Cut down on my smoking habits
4:Attend mass regularly
5:get this special girl from my cat class to a date
Bye for now homo sapiens

Saturday and Sunday

i went to pulau ubin on saturday with my aunt and godfather they brought me n my 2 cousins and one of his girlfriends along..
i wont say muh on what happened but we just cycled all they n back... while cycling however.. there so many damn mosquitos damn... and it was raining when we were half way through... lol!! ok... then we managed to cycle to the whole journey, stopped for a drink.
then we cycled back... then we went home lol...
then on sunday: i got up as usual to go to church.. but i first woke up at 6:19am, then at 7am finally at 7:30++ am lol....
reached church at about 8:30++?am. then... omg... damn too early.. nth to do... so sleep... at church!!... but then before legion meeting started i was so tired that i fell asleep... literally.. then woke up yadda yadda..
after church.. went for a dota game... 1st round... okay my team won... 2nd round.. i picked the wrong char... i meant to take dazzler but took geomancer by mistake.... we lost horribly... i kept on feeding to them... nvm.. next week... i am gonna own them back!!!!!!!! okay thats it end of my speech...lol...
until next weekend lol...

huh what the....

hell yes..
went for all souls day mass ytd.. pretty uneventful.. but i swear jonathan ng's cousin looks better without her specs on.. but she has some pretty bad cough lol...
ok.. after mass went up to moses place to return him his games and played some dota...
i was owning those bastards there with Tiny.. double kill, triple kill mega kill monster kill lol.. play WTF mode lo... so funny sia..
the others got shock seeing me play until i told them i playing wtf mode lol....
okay lar then that father of mine called me saying why am i not home at 12 midnight... i wanted to tell him lah... holiday is for ppl like me to stay out late playing dota.. not stay at home and watch tv horr... so dont gib me bullshit...

haha ok... here's the sentence of the day: Buy me a clovie i will be your enemy for life, Throw away a clovie i will be your friend forever

Today i...

played drums and slacked with antho, manuel... Finally manuel has be-friended me.. last time me n him not so good lah.. talk cock about me one... now okay lah.. hmm.. then went back to church cause manuel need to go chiong toilet hahahahaha...

sat down with david and markie.. then went to the bus stop after a cb.. so me n antho went off to the same bus stop and waited..

Funny thing is that whenever me and antho sit down and talk.. we talk man to man one lah..
othertimes its just plain fuck off lah.. fuck up lah and the likes...

okay lah.. now.. i wanna go plan for the upcoming end of year camp ycs... i am soo gonna make the gang of bitches namely clovie, denise, jolin, eew shan.. all of them are gonna cry till the die... wakakakakakaka ok lah not so extreme...

finally i am gonna go check out msn byebye

yeterday was

a bad day for me yea? my father beat the fuck outta me for smoking
so after that at least we can talk to each other face to face now..
ok hmm....
my fren jin hong what a nice fren no money in hi card ask me go rob a 7-11 store for it.. do u think i should?
i dont think so... i aint gonna do it.. cause i wanna be a good person so aint gonna do it... but i may help.. but i wont do it i will hel him achieve what he wants... but i wont do the actual stealing lol...okay i aint gonna blog during weekends so dont come here if there's anyone comin here to tag which i doubt..lol... okay see ya.. i have to get ready for tonite's rosary devotion lol...

yesterday i.....

went to moses house for dinner.. his cooking is not that bad though... settled down for a game of dota with moses before dinner.. wth louis teaching me how to by the right items for razor lol...
haha... i had fun..and then finishing up i practiced a few more rounds before leaving for home at 11.15pm.. boy my dad screwed me upside and down.. so did my mother... damn..
but oh wells....
cheers i cant go out for the rest of the week...:(

Days of Shit?

hellooo okay... so start off with yesterday.. went to church for legion meeting as usual. after that went for lunch and played dota at liners with the gang on the way saw dommy duck lol, they played the first game while i played the second, well the first game i spent by going to huisuo to check the ppl out. saw David camping there with his buddies lol. then went upstairs to see who were there.. saw bernadette only...... o.O.
went back after moses called me for the second game. i played like hell... lol.
-.-'"" ok ent to moses place for a game of xbox. then went home
sleep tired like shit.
now i am going out lol byee

Goodday n i am back

hey i am back long time no posts so yeah... okay today good day went out buy some new clothes and a new shirt.. spent over 100 bucks haha.. ok.. then went to church cause mark wanted some cancer stick from me. so yeah..
met antho.. talked.. and then i went back to the tailor's to collect my jeans haha ok thats it then next time okay i am going to bed now.. oh yeah made a new friend her name's Eva or cookiie for short.. lol.. she pretty nice though

hmmmm

been really tired these pass few days.. yes..!!! even though its holidays.... things are really stupid...maybe i should re-consider..
there's really no point... and for fuck? my friend is either pulling me into fights or pulling me into gangs... i wan neither.. i want out!! maybe my life needs some kinda... need to turn to a new clean side... i really have to now!!.... before i get into something serious.. yes.. definitely... and then.. now.. cigarettes are a problem.. no cash for it... and i wan beer... a nice glass of cold beer really preps me up...things to do to really stop messing with my life.... 1: stop hanging out with gangsters and be influenced by them.
2:cut down on smoking before i cough blood out. 3:Stop being a moron... with gangs well they say they can call ppl down with parangs and all... but i can call ppl down with guns with the power of 4 buttons... "999, call".

fuck

okay that's it.. i have enough of shit... if u dont like me thats ur problem... if u reject me thats ur problem... but if u hurt me emotionally... thats my problem? u are a fucker.. fucking bitch.. if u think u are so great den so be it... but right now.. i cant think of anything to say... i am badly shaken... at first i thought we were frens... u said my attitude sucks... thats not the real reason right? i know its not... dont be a fuck... coz i know what u mean... fine push me away.. u can push me away... but this time.. i will not come back...


By
Badly Shaken*

since when.....

since when have u thought... hey i made a promise but i didn't keep it...yes.. i have done that too many times... too many times until my frens have lost thier trust in me... from here out... i shall keep whatever promise i make(but hey.. its on the net) so i have to keep it... is smoking killing me? coz now i have been coughing out brown phlegm instead of green or white... which means my lungs is screwed.... i should seriously consider cutting down majorly (is that even a word?) but i have been stressed lately... in case u are wondering... i have been hit pretty hard from both my schl side and friends and family side.. i don't wanna say it... its getting stupid.... tata

suay day..

yesterday go to plaza sing to get a black shoe.... meet up with wt and all.. she is pretty nice though but her frends like stare, stare, stare at me... ji bai..... they got nth better to do but stare arh? nah beh... back to the point... we walke around the area in search of ip zone.. after a few minutes of walking like idiots we found it.... got my shoe and i went back to hougang green to work.... and when i got back to hougang.. i saw mr edwin lee wah kao!!!! suay nia.. i was just about to light up a cigarette.. heng sia.... he just smiled at me and nodded... i walk away immediatly... the way he does that is really scary.. oh wells.. that life... but well in my case thats just plain scary..... ok rushed to hougang green jibai they say they lost the key to the uniform drawer isn't that lucky? well NO!!! i was rushing here and there to gte the stupid black show so i can start work now got problem jibai... but oh wells... go home and listen to pentagram lo....

1st day of the damn holiday...

okay... fine... finally i am posting... this is one of the saddest days of my life... my lip hole closed.... sobs... my hole that i put in alot of effort to keep... but ohwells... okay... been cutting down on smoking.. like say from half a pack to less than 10 sticks? yeps... and my cough is getting worse... instead of the green stuff.. its more like brown.... i think i am getting lung cancer... die the earlier is suppose is better.... i hate some ppl these days.... i cant stand them but unfortunately have deep respect for them so i cant do anything bout it.... so yeah

Jobs and all

alright... this is starting to suck alot... i am starting to feel the feeling for the girl i loved...(love is a strong word but i mean it.. and its mushy too yucks) gone.... its leaking away.. constantly... oh God... please tell me do i wait for my one true love or just get one and see is it the one i wanted....

Okay.. and now its the job shit... they say go down at 3pm.. but i went there at 4pm.. okay my mistake i know!! but den say they will call me for training next week. what the fuck man.... jibai.. but its okay.. i am desperate for the cash... its gonna get me a PSP.. in case some of u dunno what it is.. its a playstation portable... u know.. playing ur games in the bus, ur fren's house and all.... man thats so cool.... gonna get that... and puah jibai... i failed my maths, science, chinese goes without saying for chinese i sucked badly... i rather go for detention then do chinese though i am a chinese lol.....

tata.... baack to um.... slacking ( i every bo liaoz de ^^)

New Girl.. New Problems..

okay... since when did guys ever think of a girl hu they just met....

Seriously man.. yesterday i just went out with jovan and his stead jiahui.. to his band practice.. i must say they play pretty good.... but i have seen better.... and well this girl jiajun.. goes there to learn drums.. good thing is... she is pretty cute.. though u guys here reading this may not find it so...its called love at first sight or something like that... i wish i had more guts to bring her out... and more cash too.. anywayz.. i have been thinking of getting a job... so i can take her out and u know...veri soon.. i have to take her outta on a date... but maybe i shld not be thinking so far now... orite... if you jiajun is reading this... what i am saying is... nah must say face to face........

The First day of my fucked up day

Hi evryone this is my new blog.. i will blog evry 2-3 days so be sure to come and see.. leave me a msg too.. okay.. now i have given up a girl (i won't mention her name its fer privacy purposes) and gone after a new one.. she is from hougang sec.. and lives near me 9 blocks away!!! she is unbelievably cute!! unbelievable fer a christian at least.. So talkative except when she goes out wif me though so unnaturally silent.. tok to her she would make her hair.. zZZz gonna bring her out during march holidays confirm must!!! ^^ Lovex,cheers yours truly